It's been three days and I still don't even know where to begin.
There were definitely a lot of emotions and compromised mental states that make the entire weekend a confusing blur. Aside from being in the city I think of as "home," I was also surrounded by a community I think of as my family.
But then, but then, but then.
I had an amazing time. Essentially it was a massive, five-day party if I include the booze cruise and the Wednesday night jenga (and I do). The thing is, all that continuous partying took a toll on me, both mentally and physically. It was, essentially, a frequent thing that I would get absolutely drunk and be out until 4 until the neighbors at my airBnB requested with varying levels of politeness that we please get out of the fucking pool, it's 4AM you donuts. And it was probably, on some level, good for me to cut loose like that. I've been under a lot of pressure and I had to release it somehow.
That said, I did say and do things I wouldn't have otherwise done. Not necessarily bad things, but still, things. I know I can be a huggy, annoying bastard when I'm drunk and I was definitely that at points. I can also be a rude loudmouth, and while people assured me I was nice I do worry. I also know there are swathes here and there that I don't completely remember, and that does upset me. What did I say? Did I make promises I can't keep? Where did I get this big gash on my leg?
Also, let's face it guys, I'm not quite old yet but I'm not the youngest guy around. My body can't take five straight days of drunkness like it used to, and my brain can't recover from the altered state as fast as before, making me a whirlwind of conflicting emotions. Especially when you consider that, outside of RTX, I almost never drink at all anymore. So I have some thoughts about my next RTX and what I plan on doing, but alcohol's involvement will have to be extremely reduced.
I also wish I had been able to see more people. There are definitely some that I just wasn't able to connect with in time or as much as I would have liked. Not the end of the world, but something to think about from last time.
But I don't want to bog this down in too much introspection, it makes what was a legitimately awesome vacation sound like a drag when it wasn't, it was a brilliant experience even if it may wind up being painfully transformative. As always I'm leaving RTX with a handful of new friends along with the old ones. And not only that these are friends I can talk with about heavy shit. It does seem that, alcohol or no, I have a tendency to talk about deeper subjects like relationships, insecurities, religion and all that fun stuff with my RT family. Maybe it's because I don't see them all the time, but that is a pretty common thing. Hell, some of those conversations with a friend I made during this weekend may have revolutionized the way I view myself and my interactions with other people as regards dating and relationships.
So that was pretty legit. I can even toss out a few highlights:
The Sanshee team is dope af. Happy that one of my roommates introduced me to them, and it's in part because of them I got my RTX tattoo. Super appreciative when they let me borrow some elastics since I lost mine.
Oh right, I got an RTX tattoo. It was the Geoff star. I may want to get it colored in back in Boston and get one line trued up (not sure if that was on them or on me, I was shit with aftercare this time around) but I want to get one every time I come down for RTX from now on!
SideQuest was awesome. Yes, I was too drunk by the end of all of their events but a lot of the best realtalk I had was there.
The booze cruise was awesome as always, since it is usually first contact with a lot of my friends for the weekend!
A guy dressed as a full Jack Sparrow told me the rum shot I did as soon as I woke up Sunday was the "breakfast of captains" in character. That was fun.
Bruce told me to stop throwing out 90s words like dope.
Once again, all the new friends I have! People who I already can't wait to see again. And that's the most wonderful thing about RTX.
Either way, I love all y'all, I love this community and I'm already counting down the days to the next RTX, where I'll see you all again in a much more sober state. It'll be a different Joe next time, but hopefully with all my good traits retained. See y'all next year!